the first time I fell in love

Chris Trousdale passed away a couple days ago and he was the first man I’ve ever loved. May you rest in peace Chris. I’ll forever miss you my love. Every time …


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37 thoughts on “the first time I fell in love

  • candysmiles11

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Oh my celebrity crush back in the day was Jesse McCartney from dream street he still is my celebrity crush


    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Look into some counseling session's in your area

    Vero M

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Omg! I used to watch you in middle school and the beginning of high school! Now I am in my 3rd year of college!
    Edit: I randomly remembered you months ago and couldnt remember your name but the name "nick" came to mind. Forgot your name was Matt but I'm so glad to see you:)

    Psycho PG3D

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    I love u sm Matthew I’m so sorry for what happened like I’ve been watching u since I was 12 (in the closet) you inspired me to come out and that was 6 YEARS ago stay strong Matthew hope we can help u like u helped me all these years

    Amy Kellogg

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Been here for years 🙂

  • GW Style

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Love you Mathew I remember you from the MySpace days and it was you and Jefferee Star that made me come out of the closet and love myself for who I was.

    Nate Dellia

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Ay try the PuffBar. They are disposable Vapes


    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Makes me wanna listen to nothing else matters. Don't know if you listen to any Metallica or not but I know that feeling of just being captured in love like that where nothing else seems to matter, and the song hits that nail on the head pretty well for me. Also sorry to hear about his passing.

    Holly Doyle

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)


    Danilo Nascimento

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Matt, Imma tell you this: I felt every single word you said. I've been through something like this and, the fact that you're sharing such intimate story, makes me remember why I like you so much! I remember your first videos, and I feel like, your honesty is so relatable that, it makes me wanna hug you.

    Thank you for being so vulnerable. That's a gorgeous way to show strength.

    It's inspiring. Thank you.

    And I'm really for your loss.

    xoxo from Brazil <3

  • Male neko yandere Senpai

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Your almost to a 1mil subscribers

    Meh You

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Hi Matthew. Sooo I don’t know you remember me but I am Frida. You said my name during your YouNows and I went wilddddd. Biggest fan ever. I won that call and got to talk to you for a bit. hi!

    No Excuses

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Its weird cus my brother wansplaying video games and used to watch videos of u and nick and so i ask my brother

    “ do u know the name of this youtubeer about god something… then i had to ask if u and nick r still together “

    Day -in- nara

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)


    Amanda Baldwin

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    i cried with u i love dream street i still listen to their music

  • cartrice2010

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    When you said, “The more years you live, the more people you love die.” That brought tears to my eyes. 😭❤️💔

    Ronald Awaseb

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    I still wonder if you were on degrassi with drake

    keith rannie

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    I used to watch you all the time as a kid and I finally found your YouTube 🥺😭

    Sharon Bernath

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Happy Birthday Matthew!! I hope you have a wonderful day and a wonderful year? 😊👍🌟🎂

    David McClellan

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    im staying home safe for you cause i love you love David

    Baby Zilly

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    You just randomly popped in my head and I had to look you up. I’ve been a fan for so long!! I even have the famous “HOPE” hoodie 💘

    papa smurf

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Thanx Matt! HUGS!!!! <3

    Viv Bass

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    I used to watch you all the time and I was picking out a wallapaper and said "gay-bies" out loud and remembered you, I'm so glad you're still making videos, you are the reason I'm out

    Emma Bower

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Post notifications on and always

    Kaylie Joye

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Ive watched many videos of "exposing" matt but I still love him. Yes he has done some things he shouldn't have cause hes human. Ive been watching him for about 7 or 8 years and ive been through his ups and downs but i just wanted to thank him. Hes one of the reasons i had the courage to come out and be happy that im gay and i dont know if i could have done that without him and seeing his channel go down like this is so depressing.

    TheFutureChannel lol

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    " Happiness can be found even in the darkets time. But only remember, if you turn on the light. My suggestion, Be better person for your own future, matt. I think You are beautiful person inside your heart but Scars sometimes can make people got the wrong act choices in life. Including acts in relationship to anybody. Including to friends, bestfriend, families or maybe people that we don't know. Life and learn. Be strong matt.
    I love you. "

    Just passing by coming here to your youtube channel. Only to say this. And watching your video, of course. Well, have a great day, matt. Stay strong. Stay safe and take care. ❤


    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    I use to be a fan of him back in 2015 .. Not anymore

    Cain Keenan

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Hey Matt, just know in your heart and mind that he is in a better place now. And I know that it’s hard to let go of someone who you know in your heart and mind you had a special connection with. And someone who truly loved especially in this type of circumstance and I’m very sorry for your loss. Know that with time the pain that your heart is feeling right now will slowly fade, but yes he will always have a place in your heart. So some day will be better than others and some days will be worse. Stay strong darling, I lush you. 💕

    Luna Bug

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Deep Love is so rare, but my god to love someone like that is so beautiful the feeling is such a powerful majestic gift ❤️❤️ I have no doubt he deeply cared about you love xx no you are not ridiculous you are a very loving I can relate in a way, a childhood friend of mind I liked died when we were kids😢 it was a whole thing, love you queen

    Jennifer Cusumano

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)


    Richieee Petrila

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    you are not ridiculous ,you are boring

    brianna moreau

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    what is the app called

    Tenzing Choeyang is Racist

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Yet another death you are trying to profit off…. your brother now someone else absolutely sick

    Timm Sheehan

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    Hey Matt nice story.. you really rock that hoodie, where did you get it?

    Madam Roast Beef

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    LOVE YOU MATT! Sorry for your loss… life is so cruel…

    Karissa Davis

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    He was one of my first loves as well. I’m not sure what I’m feeling right now. My thoughts are with the family, friends, & fans. 💔❤️

    Gay Times

    (January 5, 2021 - 3:51 am)

    You may just be a “small” youtuber now – but to me you will always be unique. Not because I think you are hot(you are not bad neither! 😈). Because I think you are genuine and one of the first gay boys on YouTube!

    Keep doing what you do and stay on the tube!

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